Always at Night

“I fear the darkness only wanted me to become it.”

- Kay Anderson

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It’s always at night.

When my heart is most heavy and my fears step into the light.

The days grow colder, and the sun shies away before its time.

I just want to shut it off. I want it to stop.

Is that such a crime?

Is it too much to ask for peace?

Another night all by my lonesome. But I’m never lonely.

The racing thoughts in my head will never cease.

That’s what it seems.

It’s always at night.

It started at whispers. A small voice.

But they grew louder. They became shouts.

Bold choice.

I almost didn’t listen. But I did.

I believed every word.

I’ll tell you what they said, but it was cruel.

My reality became blurred.

I fear the darkness only wanted me to become it.

To become darkness.

I don’t know why I’m still here.

Fear? Love? Spite?

I only question it at night.

It’s always at night.