Burdens or Blessings?

At times I feel a heavy weight in my heart 

To be honest my soul just feels apart, 

from love or from God ? I think maybe I should call. 

Sometimes before the fall, I wish I could hit restart 

But I’ll never regret a second of life,love,or pain 

for me it is all just one and the same. 

Much different than this narrow gate I have entered 

Seems much like hell and I dwell in the center 

I’m just a fool, a renter with no human mentor. 

Don’t worry anointed the journey is fun but theres much more suffering that surely will come.

Though I struggle everyday and ache from my toes to my crown. 

God gives me the strength to never back down. 

I’ve made this promise my path I shall walk, no matter the evil or danger that stalks.

For those dangers shall miss you and evils been slain. 

In faith, grace, and love in bright light I remain, unchained. 

I trust and fear in my God the Almighty, as should you.

This life can be gone in a second, please friend just make sure that you check in.

Remember to walk in power 

Remember to walk in light 

before darkness consumes you just know that I’m right. 

So try not to judge my talk or my walk might not be for you or your whole block. 

Trust me, my everything aches 

I cry out so often but 

God will be happy and His heart I shall soften. 

It’s your life my friend you do as you please 

I see how you think 

“who would ever want shoes just like these?” 

Behold It is I, observe and bewildered. 

Do you see how strange, this oxymoron of life ? 

Filled with wonder and abundant in strife 

I know that it just might give u the blues. 

You there, yes you please explain it to me. 

How does an unfaithful faithkeep me falsely in truth.